The start of Unapologetically Me..

I set up this blog over half a year ago and it just sat with a draft half done for the longest time. What made me decide that at 1:17 that I wanted to actually come home and write? I don't know. I'm not expecting this to be read by many if any but I felt like I needed to do it. Not for others but myself and maybe along the way I will allow a glimpse into my life and you will get to know the real and raw me.. At some point I had decided that the following little blurb needed to be written. I don't know when exactly I wrote it and I'm not in the exact place that I was then but felt like it doesn't hurt to publish my feelings.. at least at the time they were written.. so here it goes.. from whenever this was written...


I've wanted to write this for awhile.. only a few minutes ago when I was in the shower I finally realized that I needed to stop giving myself an excuse and just do it already. And since I don't generally do things small I've started a blog. I may only have 1 reader (Hi Mom) and if that's the case I am okay with it..

I have spent way too long feeling like I am not enough.. not pretty enough, not smart enough, not skinny enough, not funny enough, stylish enough,  not a good enough mom, not a good enough daughter, not a good enough sister or friend. Why do we do this to ourselves? When did being ourselves become not good enough. I'm sick of apologizing and agonizing over not being good enough for others.

NO MORE! I mean lets be honest feeling adequate is easier said than done. But I think this is just the beginning of my journey. Somewhere along the way I've lost myself and its time that I figure out the person I was meant to be flaws and all.. No more excuses. No more apologizing for being me.